Archive | August, 2015

Do you hear me?  

20 Aug

Did you hear what I said?

Did you hear what I whispered in your ear at night?

Did you hear the ache in my heart?

Did you hear the torture of my head?

Did you hear my silent cries?

Do you wonder how it feels?

I pray you never, ever feel this way……

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Free me!!

8 Aug

I no longer want to feel pain

I no longer want to ache with guilt

I no longer want to feel depressed

I no longer want to feel the stigma

I no longer want to feel sad 

I no longer want to be a door mat

I no longer want to be me

I no longer want to feel this sickness

I no longer want to be a pill

I no longer want to explain

I no longer want to live under your grip

I no longer want to live this lie

A Turn Around

8 Aug

Some time has passed. We are finally through the nasty New England weather. Sun shine, blue skies….I love it!  I have made a lot of progress over the last couple of months. Healing has finally begun. Things are just so much clearer to me now. I want to share this with all that have hope, need hope and can move forward. I guess I just realized a lot over the past 6 months, year. There is absolutely nothing I can do about the past!  Most important, it’s not my fault!  I didn’t choose some of the things that are a part of my childhood. Things I did and chose to do, I need to move on from. I have to stop holding on to things that do not define me. To find happiness in the now and appreciate what I have. I have two kids who depend on me and I need to be the best Mom I can be.